In good times & bad.....

I am so thankful for my husband, Simon.  He is so good to me.  8 years ago when we said our vows "in good times and in bad times, in sickness & in health...."  neither one of us knew the challenges that were ahead, especially the in sickness part.  The last few weeks have been very rough on both of us.  I haven't been feeling well at all, have extreme back bain, bloating in my abdomen, nausea and more.  Through all of it Simon has been right by my side, helping me with anything I may need.  Getting me food, doing the laundry, cleaning the house.....jobs that I have been to weak to do myself.  But most of all, being here to give me a hug when I need it or praying with me when I am worked up and my mind wanders down the "what if" path. 

So many times throughout this cancer journey I have cried out to God asking for Him to do a mighty work of healing in my body.  It seems that every time I ask for healing, God chooses to allow another trial, or bump in the road.  Many times I've asked God "why me" and many times I have told God that I've reached the limit of what I can handle--yet it's as if He keeps stretching me and saying "I will never give you more than you can handle". 

Faith is hard....it's hard when you are in the midst of a trial that you can't control.  When things are going fine, it's easy to say, yes, I have faith.  But when the real trials of life come and you have to rely on the Lord 100%--it's not as easy as it sounds.  At least not for me. 

I'm not sure what the future holds.  I don't know if the Lord is going to miraculously heal me.....or if He will choose to take me home.  either way, I know that HE loves me and His ways are not my ways.  So as you pray for me, please remember to pray for Simon too.  This hasn't been an easy road for him either.  We love you and thank you for your prayers on our behalf.

Sonya

Specific prayer request:
1) Swelling in my abdoment to go away
2)  Pain & nausea to go away
3)  Encouragment for Simon and I
4)  Radiation treatments to be successful

Update

I hope all of you had a happy 4th of July spending time with your family & friends. I just had a follow up appointment with my doctor (they are every month now) and he was very pleased with my most recent lab results. When I stopped my chemo and started my new oral medication my cancer levels went from 500 up to 900 (this is expected so we were not worried). My most recent cancer level as of last week had already dropped my level down to the 600 range. This news made both me and my doctor happy! Praise the Lord!! Simon and I recently got back from Colorado (yes another trip). We went back for Simons cousins wedding and his youngest brothers high school graduation celebration. We had a great time with family and enjoyed the warmer weather. We were about 3 hours from the fires. Thank you for your continued prayers--I know without a doubt that my "good" levels are a result of your continued prayers on my behalf! Sonya